靈氣直到臨終最後一刻 Reiki Until the Last Breath

靈氣直到臨終最後一刻 | 2017.04.06

靈氣直到臨終最後一刻 Reiki Until the Last Breath
作者：Marsha R. Dozdoff，CRMT

即使在 91 歲的時候，我的母親依然美麗；就在她去世前四個星期，她將頭髮染成了她平時漂亮的金色。她喜歡好好的穿著鮮豔顏色的衣服。儘管她從八十多歲起就因黃斑性病變而失明，但她的嘴唇上幾乎總是幾乎完美地塗著口紅。在她的鼎盛時期，她是一位出色的廚師，喜歡為朋友和家人舉辦晚宴。然而，即便如此，在表面之下也存在著信心和自尊的長期問題。她經常會比較悲觀的看待這個世界，充滿了擔憂、不適、失望，以及衰老的問題。在與她唯一的女兒單獨在一起的那些時刻，她經常用修辭的方式反問：“為什麼這些事情只會發生在我身上？”

當我母親 82 歲時，我和我丈夫在她生日那天為她進行了靈氣 1 級的訓練。雖然她從來不知道所有的手位，但她確實對自己使用了靈氣來緩解她因關節炎和纖維肌痛症而經歷的疼痛，以及恐懼-尤其是與死亡相關的恐懼，更準確地說是孤獨的死亡。

在過去的 35 年裡，我一直是一名臨床社會工作者，主要從事腫瘤學的工作。自從 2005 年成為靈氣大師以來，我有幸在亞利桑那州圖森的大學醫學中心與一千多人一起教授並與靈氣偕同工作，主要是在門診進行。我母親在她生命的最後幾年是我最不喜歡與之共事的人之一，這讓我總是感到很難過。通常情況下，事情“永遠不夠好”-即使對媽媽做靈氣也會帶來這種感覺：“把你的手移到這裡/那裡”，“揉我的肩膀”等等。當她即將步入人生的第 10 個十年時，坐在地板上談論生活和她的擔憂，並在膝蓋、腳和腳趾上練習大量靈氣，這通常感覺更好；它似乎緩解了她因進行性腎臟疾病而經歷的神經病變和其他一些足部的併發症。因為靈氣會去最需要它的地方，媽媽會變得更加冷靜和開放，與現在這個即將邁向生命終結時期的不斷變化和危險的時代相較下，她會開始回憶起那些更安全、更熟悉的生活、家庭的時光。

在她生命中的最後一年，情況開始急劇惡化。即使在夜間，也有更頻繁的求救電話；儘管增加了對她的家庭護理，但很明顯是時候將她移送到養老輔助的社區了。然而她的情況並沒有穩定下來，她的身體和情感上的痛苦越來越嚴重，以至於管理層堅持要我們為她額外聘請二十四小時私人護理，並不斷鼓勵我們使用越來越多的藥物來控制她的行為。這對我來說是不可接受的，所以在三個月內，我們面臨著使否要讓臨終關懷家庭護理參與加入的艱難決定。我一直在徒步旅行，試圖讓我的思緒平靜下來，以便更好地從內在的靈魂中聽到什麼可以對媽媽有幫助，當答案清楚地表明是時候了，那天我打電話給臨終關懷醫院。然後在做出這個決定的幾天內，我的精神響導告訴我，我們需要把媽媽搬到一個環境中，在那裡她可以得到這位優雅的女士應得的尊嚴和舒適的照顧。媽媽的臨終關懷提供者是我們社區中唯一一家擁有住宅臨終關懷設施的提供者，她有望在那裡度過餘生。

然而，上天有另一個計劃。一旦媽媽知道她不必如此地拒絕與否認死亡，她就開始讓這個自然過程發生得比我們任何人都預料的要快。她幾乎是在恍惚的狀態中開始了最後的旅程，彼岸和此岸之間的面紗變得越來越薄。她開始見到一些她深愛的親人。好像她的生命仰賴於它，她偶爾會用看似隱喻且呢喃的方式說話，一遍又一遍地重複：“按鈕，按鈕，按鈕”......或“黃色，黃色，黃色......顏色是黃色”或“11，11， 11。”

然後，在她去世前三天，她摘下了她的視障用錶，她本能地知道她將要去的地方不需要這個。她還問我應該怎麼怎麼去另一個世界。我告訴她，總會有人引導她的。我的好女兒瑞秋 (Rachael) 非常崇拜她的祖母，她開始陪在她身邊，在那裡待了三天三夜。在媽媽去世前兩天，我參加了這場守夜活動。正如我所承諾的那樣，只要我被允許陪伴她，我就會在那裡用語言、靈氣來引導和支持她。在我給她靈氣的 18 個小時左右的時間裡，我觀察並感受到了靈氣的奇蹟和禮物；作為一個“老女孩”，她與我建立了強烈的聯繫，並降臨的了很多能量去協助她在這段旅程中所需要的精神工作，這讓我感到驚訝。這也使得她過世前的最後的這段時間，因為這個祝福讓她有力量與機會在情感和精神方面避免了很多問題。

除了是臼井靈氣大師之外，我還是 Karuna Reiki ® 大師，所以我也加入了 Karuna 符號。我使用 Zonar 為她提供盡可能多的身體麻醉與舒適，這樣即使有身體的積水，她也不會感到痛苦。我用 Halu 來處理自我陰影的問題，這樣她就可以和 Kriya 這個符號一起解決過去的陳舊問題，並避免將它們帶入來世； Iava 指引她治愈相互依賴的問題，以充實她自己對於身份和個人力量的感受。即使在她臨終的過程中，我也使用很多 Harth 讓她更具的同情心並釋放對他人的批評與判斷。從此，她的臉色發生了明顯的變化，當她在進行精神上的交流時，她的臉上帶著光彩、光芒和微笑。我沒有像某些人相信的那樣告訴她“走進光明”，而是輕聲告訴媽媽，我能感覺到她看到了她這次在地球上遇到的每個人身上的光芒，她和每個人都是他們自己獨特的佛。我使用了很多 Gnosa 來增強她的精神學習和與更高自我的聯繫，並作為通向來生的精神橋樑。作為一個女兒，我希望媽媽能夠在各個層面體驗Shanti ，以治愈殘留的恐懼，同時擁抱深刻而令人滿意的平靜。雖然我早些時候在照顧她的時使用了 Rama，但此時我選擇不使用它，以避免接地的能量在她應離去時反而引發矛盾；出於這個原因，在最後的二十四小時內，我也沒有在她的腳上工作。

吻(The Kiss)：我必須分享關於吻的事。當媽媽在地球上的最後一段時間旅行時，她的嘴唇在與另一個世界不停地的交流。雖然她沒有任何和我們交流的跡象，但我被指示對她說：“媽媽，看起來你想要一個吻。” 我把臉貼在她身邊，她給了我一生中給過的最純潔、最甜蜜的吻。這在接下來的幾個小時裡重複了很多次，每次她就讓我得到以前從未從這個女人的身上體驗過的輕鬆和愛，雖然她真的很愛她的孩子，但她一直無法與我們分享，因為她受到了與自己母親的關係造成的深深傷口的影響。而靈氣讓生命的最後一刻得到如此深刻的療愈，這些問題都得到了轉變，最後只剩下純粹的愛。

我想分享的最後一點－如果你發現自己在親人生命的盡頭將靈氣送給了他或她，你可能想要帶上一些額外的食物。在提供豐富的靈氣的同時認識到我的飢餓感讓我真的哭笑不得；也許這在某種程度上是對一位熱愛美食、好朋友和家人的女性的致敬！

這篇文章發表在 2011 年秋季《靈氣新聞》雜誌上。

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Reiki Until the Last Breath
by Marsha R. Dozdoff, CRMT

My Mother was gorgeous, even at 91; just four weeks prior to her passing, she had her hair dyed her usual pretty, blond shade. She loved lively colors in her clothing and wore them well. There was almost always lipstick on her lips, nearly perfectly placed even though she had been blind from macular degeneration since her eighties. In her prime, she was a great cook and enjoyed making dinner parties for friends and family. However, even then, not too far below the surface there were chronic issues with confidence and self-esteem. Frequently she saw the glass as half empty, filled with worries, discomforts, disappointments, and later, aging issues. She would often ask in a rhetorical manner during those moments alone with me, her only daughter: “Why do these things only happen to me?”

When my mother turned 82, my husband and I treated her to Reiki Level 1 training for her birthday. Although she never knew all the hand positions, she did use Reiki on herself to quiet the pain she experienced from arthritis and fibromyalgia, and the fears—especially fear related to dying and more precisely dying alone.

I have been a clinical social worker, working primarily in oncology, for the past 35 years. Since becoming a Reiki Master Teacher in 2005, I have had the privilege of teaching or working with Reiki with over a thousand individuals at University Medical Center in Tucson, Arizona, mostly on an outpatient basis. It always felt sad for me to say that my mother was one of my least favorite folks to work with during her final years. Often things were “never good enough”—even doing Reiki on Mom brought out that feeling: “move your hand here/there,” “rub my shoulders,” and more. As she approached the beginning ofher tenth decade of life, it often felt better to just sit on the floor while she was talking about life and her concerns and do lots of Reiki on her knees, feet, and toes; it seemed to quiet the neuropathy and some other feet complications she experienced from a progressive kidney disorder. Since Reiki will go where it is most needed, Mom would become calmer and openhearted and would reminisce about life, family, and times that were safer and more familiar than this changing and perilous end of life terrain.

Things deteriorated dramatically during her last year. There were more frequent calls of distress even during the night; despite increasing homecare for her, it became clear that it was time to move her to an assisted living community. Her situation did not stabilize, and her physical and emotional anguish increased so much so that the management insisted that we hire additional twenty-four hour private care for her and kept encouraging us to use more and more medication to control her behaviors. This was unacceptable to me, and so within three months, we were facing the difficult decision of involving Hospice homecare. I had been out hiking trying to quiet my mind to better hear from spirit what would be of help to Mom when the answer came through clearly that it was time, and I called hospice that day. Then within days of that decision, spirit told me that we needed to move Mom out to an environment where she could receive the dignified and comfortable care that this classy lady deserved. Mom’s hospice provider was the only one in our community that had a residential hospice facility where she could hopefully live out her remaining few months of life.

Spirit, however, had another plan. Once Mom knew that she didn’t have to be in such denial about dying, she began to allow this natural process to occur more quickly than any of us could have predicted. She began to journey almost in a trance state, and the veil between here and not here became thinner. She began to see some dear relatives whom she had loved a lot. She occasionally would speak in seemingly metaphorical ways, repeating over and over again as if her life depended upon it: “button, button, button”….or “yellow, yellow, yellow…the color is yellow” or “11, 11, 11.”

Then, in what turned out to be three days before her passing, she took off her talking watch for the visually impaired, instinctively knowing that she wouldn’t need it where she was traveling to. She also asked me how she would know how to get there; I told her that there would always be someone to guide her. My wonderful daughter Rachael, who adored her Grandma, began staying at her side, remaining there for three days and nights. I joined this vigil two days before Mom’s passing. As I had promised, I was there to guide and support her with words, with Reiki, and with care for as long as I would be permitted to accompany her. I watched and sensed the miracles and gifts of Reiki during the 18 hours or so that I gave her Reiki; for an “old gal,” she amazed me by connecting strongly and pulling much energy to do the spiritual work and journeying that she needed to do. So much of what she had avoided in terms of emotional and spiritual issues, she was blessed to have the strength and opportunity to do before her passing.

Besides being an Usui Reiki Master, I am also a Karuna Reiki ® Master so I incorporated the Karuna symbols, too. I used Zonar to allow her as much physical comfort and anesthesia as possible so that even when there was fluid buildup, she would not be distressed. I used Halu to deal with shadow self issues so that along with Kriya, she could resolve old issues and avoid taking them into the next life; Iava was directed for her to heal codependency issues to feel the fullness of her own identity and personal power. There was lots of Harth for her to have more compassion and to release judgment of others even during her dying process. And from this there was a noticeable shift in her face, along with a brightness, a glow, and a smile as she spiritually talked to others. Instead of telling her to “go into the light” as some folks believe, I softly told Mom that I could sense that she was seeing the light in each person that she had met along the way this time on Earth and that she and each one of them were Buddhas in their own unique manner. I used a lot of Gnosa to augment her spiritual learning and connection with her higher self and act perhaps as a spiritual bridge to the next life. As a daughter I wanted Mom to experience Shanti on all levels for healing of residual fears while embracing deep and satisfying peace. Although I used Rama earlier on in her care, I chose not to use it at this point, to avoid grounding her when she was ambivalent about letting go; for that reason I also did not work on her feet during the final twenty-four hours.

The Kiss: I must share about the Kiss. While Mom was journeying during that final time on earth, her lips kept moving during her other world communications. Although she did not give any sign of communicating with us, I was directed to say to her: “Mom, it looks like you want a kiss.” I put my face next to her and she gave me the purest, sweetest kiss that she had ever given me in my life. This was repeated many times in the next few hours, and each time she came from an inner place of a lightness and love that I had never experienced from this woman before, who, although she truly loved her children, had not been able to share because of the effects of the deep wounds from her relationship with her own mother. Receiving such deep healing from Reiki through to the last moment of her life, these issues were transmuted and all that was left in the end was pure love.

One final point that I would like to share—if you find yourself giving Reiki to a loved one at the end of his or her life, you may want to bring extra food with you. Recognizing how hungry I felt while providing abundant Reiki made me laugh and cry at the same time; perhaps it was a tribute on some level to a woman who loved good food, good friends, and family!

靈氣直到臨終最後一刻 Reiki Until the Last Breath

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